Just curious to know how many/who is reading these days.

Every Sunday night is sacred to me. I prefer to stay at home (unless it's something really, really groovy) and get my mind back into work energy. I prefer to start each week with a clean home, clean and pressed clothes, clean and put up dishes and the trash put out.

OK, it's the double Virgo in me, no doubt, but it helps me focus on the more important tasks if my space is clean and well-ordered. This is, no doubt, a reaction to the total chaos of our home when I was growing up.

Since I helped my mother today, I haven't had a chance to iron clothes - and I have quite a few. I was kinda under-the-radar fretting about the fact that I wouldn't be getting to my new business financial stuff when I had ironing to do, and of course, there's no way to do both.

So it hit me - no, there isn't any way to do both tonight - but the IRONING can wait. The business is much more important. Not as if I have to go to work naked.

It's a little uncomfortable, but I think I'll live.

Adios. I need a shower.

...by creating a newsletter that she needed to do. It only took me a couple of hours, it would've taken her weeks. She gave me $40, which helped us both out. Sometimes I feel funny taking money from her, but she would feel funny NOT giving me money and I could use it. Besides, it keeps her from wasting my time completely.

AND WHY SHOULD I FEEL FUNNY ABOUT TAKING MONEY FOR SOMETHING I'M GOOD AT?

Market value for something like that is really closer to $150, so we both benefited.

She gave me $10 of it in cash, so I was able to put $5 in my gas tank (for those who keep up, that about 1 and 2/3 gallons of gas, but it was enough for me to get to yoga and home) and to buy a dozen eggs (needed for my diet) and a couple of apples and a MUCH desired diet Coke. I've cut waaaay down on those things, but still require one a day or I get jumpier than a smoker trying to quit!

So my total spent today was $9.66 and I have $30 left over.

You know, it really was kinda fun to see how little I could get by with this weekend. I don't want to settle for just getting by, but being able to actually GET BY is an improvement.

I have been able to get my yoga through barter in the past. I get them a media story, and I get three free months. That really helps out the budget a lot, because the classes are $15 each (packages make it a little cheaper, but I don't really have $140 a month for something like yoga). I'm thinking they might want to change this, because yesterday I told the teacher that I'm still up for helping with a marketing plan - an offer I've made a dozen times, but hey, they're yoga teachers - and she mentioned that they have someone else who has a PR firm and will be helping.

I haven't been there in awhile (3 months or so) because of my schedule and the fact that I just have a hard time keeping up with it due to time (it's a half hour there, a 90 minute class, shower time, half hour back home AND a lot of gas since it's about 25 minutes away) but I'd hate to lose that arrangement. I'm putting it out there that we can make something happen here.

There's another yoga teacher willing to do the same, but she is waaaay out of my way (about a 40 minute drive) and even for free, that ain't worth it.

I do a particular kind of hot yoga that only has 4 studios in the entire area, so it's not on every street corner.

Oh well...that's enough for now.

My lunch was finally deducted. The $1.94 for the soda yesterday hasn't been yet.

What I really need know is gas in the car because I'm on fumes, but that will be provided.

I had an epiphany when I realized that my hairdresser was simply responding to my deeper wish here - that I be able to get to payday without spending money. Even if she didn't know that's what she was doing...

So it seems God/the Universe/Law of Attraction is beginning to hear my money wishes...good for ME!

I post on a message board on a rather frequent basis, so I thought I'd copy and paste some of it here...just in case anyone is reading.

I thought xxxx's post on another thread really insightful and helpful to get the "stuck" energy "unstuck." So I thought I'd respond, appropriate for my own situation, of course.

1. How would your life be different if you were organized, knowledgeable and felt abundant with money today?
2. What would you do differently in actions, thoughts and words as a woman with money abundance that you're not doing today?
3. What is stopping you from "being" the person described in #2?

1. I answered this question in coaching once before, and I had to stop and think about it because I am so used to my money situation being chaotic. And before mine, my parents' situation was similar. Here's how my life would be different: my energy would be focused on creating the life I want, not whacking financial moles. My energy would be focused on creating MORE money, sharing money and buiilding dreams (mine and others). I would be free - free to be responsible while living my best life.

And WHO is that person? Who would I be if I didn't have the issues I've carried around most of my life?

Still working on that one.

2. What would I do differently in actions: I would be proactive in dealing with my money; handling and paying bills before they were due or due to be cut off; I would be more energetic in sharing my life with others; I would volunteer to help those who have trouble like I've had; I'd feel more like I was in my job because I wanted to be. I'd be dancing more often!

Thoughts: My thoughts would be clear on how to handles challenges; my thoughts would be on creating more; my thoughts would be creative, fun and energetic; my thoughts would be more global.

Words: My words would match my thoughts and actions better. As it is now, I feel like there is a disconnect between what I say and what I'm thinking. I say positive statements, but I don't feel them - so there is inner conflict. My words would be more positive.

3. What is stopping me? Nothing is stopping me from the above except years of residue of old habits, old thoughts and old energy. I'm still working through all that. I have new ideas, but it takes time to implement them all and to shift fully, instead of shifting partially.

That was harder than I thought. I even had to get up and clean up and change clothes to distract myself. Clearly I'm still uncomfortable thinking of myself as a successful, abundant woman.

Maybe I'll post some of this around my home. Peace.